I am very sad and very pissed off with myself and some people. ):

Well I don't need to elaborate on why I'm pissed off with some people.
They themselves know what they did.



I can't believe I didn't treasure the times when you were around.
It's taking the saying that one doesn't treasure something until it's taken away to a whole new level.
And now I seriously wonder what I'm going to do.
I shouldn't have gotten mad or irritated yesterday, and although you were trying to show some concern, I was being so anal.
I am truly regretting the way I've treated you.

You've been supporting me in more ways than one, and even though I can't stand to give in to you at all and I don't show it, you're an extremely important person to me.
And I mean what I say.

Sometimes, you may come across as being selfish or childish.
As do I when I act the same way too.
But we both have our reasons for being dumbasses.
But now I can't be selfish.
You have to go do what you're supposed to do, and I don't want to hold you back.

I want to make the best out of the 11-odd days that you're still here.

But shit, I'm going to miss you a lot. A lot more than I can express.
Maybe I don't have an extremely apt song to describe this situation, but I think the most closely related one is this.
I can't find another way to say it, except via a song.
And seriously now, it's become one of my favorite songs and now you're linked to it. ):
Well lucky you, now every time it plays you're stuck in my head.

I wish you could hear the words underlined and in bold from me personally. );
Take them to heart, cause I really mean them.
But I've to settle for second best.
Opportunity cost @__@
Econs is getting to me. D:<


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This might be my last chance,
So maybe I should take it.
I just hope you're listening,
To everything I’m saying.

I miss the long drives, the car rides,
The bad fights, the good times.
The way you make me feel
will never leave my mind.

Think of you later in my empty room,
Where I, I will fall asleep alone.
Think of you later in my empty room,
Where I, I will fall asleep alone.

So quit your crying,
And wipe the tears from your eyes.
‘Cause this is “see you later,”
I’m not into goodbyes.

Watch the brake lights,
as I leave your driveway.
The warm nights, will stay beside me,
No matter where I go.

Think of you later in my empty room,
Where I, I will fall asleep alone
Think of you later in my empty room,
Where I, I will fall asleep alone.

Watch the brake lights,
as I leave your driveway.
The warm nights, will stay beside me,
No matter where I go.

Think of you later in my empty room,
Where I, I will fall asleep alone

Think of you later in my empty room,
Where I, I will fall asleep alone.
Think of you later in my empty room,
Where I, I will fall asleep alone

Think of you later in my empty room,
Where I, I will fall asleep alone.

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Good luck, and do your best there.
And then pick up your ass and get it back here.
I'm rooting for you.