Wednesday, October 15, 2008
Perfectly Aligned @ 11:03 PM
Apparently, quite a big 'incident' happened in school today.
Well, from what I've heard from Monkey, I can only say that it's something that no one should ever see. I don't think it's very pleasant to actually watch someone stand a few metres from his/her death and contemplate about whether they want to go forward and seize it or not. I may not know the reason she's jumping, but seriously - whatever reason it is, she could've turned to someone for help first.
The school has a counselor, no? What's she doing there if not for students to talk to her and have a listening ear? Okay, I know some people don't like to reveal their problems to others/dislike having to go to the counselor lest they be labelled 'crazy'. Aren't there TEEN HELPLINES to assist? They can remain anonymous, and speak to total strangers!
Lessening one's emotional burden is a big step already.I may have actually thought about suicide before, but look, I'm still sitting here and typing this. Which means that I haven't committed suicide. Fine, if you want to argue about family backgrounds, I can admit that I'm from a pretty privileged family, which is relatively stable. Maybe that particular girl has family problems, maybe it's her results, maybe it's something else that's bothering her. But really, the big question here is:
Is Death the solution?This is a morbid thought: If she, or if any of you readers, had committed suicide successfully, do you think all your problems will be gone?
Sure, you think that since you're dead, you don't have to take responsibility for anything. But here's reality, you can't do anything. You're leaving friends/family/loved ones behind. I don't know what kind of relationship you have with anything, but it's got to count for something. Say maybe your beloved pet, a plant, anything. And if you're the 'Oh I'm emo and I hate the world over. So I totally don't have any friends or family and I can just die without troubling anyone." kind, why don't you try channelling that negative energy into something more positive? For all you know you could become an activist, a revolutionalist, a politician, anything - because of your different POV.
We live in the modern world, and it's understandable that stress piles up, burdens - emotional and physical, are very real. But do you think your life has such little value?
This is my own POV, and if you don't agree, please STFU if you want to flame. Your own POVs are welcome though:
Your life, anyone's life, is a miracle. It takes anyone a great deal of effort to get through the day. Some days just seem to be worst than others, and different people reach different low points in their life at different times. If
I gave up and actually commit suicide upon meeting such misfortune, I must say that I'll be sorely disappointed with myself in the end.
What I believe is that: if I myself can't overcome it, I don't deserve to continue.
That means I'll be believing that my emotional strength is
bowing down to this misfortune. This sick and infuriating misfortune that seems to get the better of me and I can't seem to get by it.
I won't stand for that. The way I see it, it's just
degrading yourself. Thinking that you yourself can be so easily beaten by something like that.
I'm sorry if that offended anyone, but as I said at the beginning of my POV, please STFU if you want to flame.
I have been fortunate enough to attend AKLTG's IAG Mod 3. In Module 3, we actually did a scenario when our lives were on the line. It's true, I didn't think to save myself, and only 4 self-preserving people made it past that test.
For those who haven't gone, let me tell you the story that we heard after that.
What was it exactly that made us all change our minds and believe that our lives were worth living for?Answer this question truthfully.
Even if you don't, it's on your own conscience.
You're on a ship. And it sank. 29 thousand other passengers, and you are the only survivor. Probably by some miracle, some kind of divine assistance, and some help from the other passengers.
Now, X years later, you go into bankruptcy and you're handling a divorce, also fighting for custody for your dear children. And you lost your case.
Is the heat too high for you already?
Are you going to throw your life away now and escape?
Answer that yourself before you continue.
If your answer is no, you're admirable.
If your answer is yes, then prepare yourself.
Do you remember X years earlier, when 29 thousand passengers died, and you were the only one who survived? Think of it this way, they died so you could live.
If you threw away your life right now, wouldn't it be doing a disservice to them?
You lived, and 29 thousand people died.
And now you feel that your life can just be thrown away like that.
I wonder how you'll be able to live with yourself after that.
Oh right, you'll be dead. And you have all eternity to do your soul searching.
Does this seem like crap to you, lovely reader?
I can assure you this is reality.
Do you know why you even exist on Earth today?
Because out of all the sperms that made their way to the egg, one particular one reached it.
And it was the fusing of those two that gave rise to you.
How many sperms were present?
Over 29 thousand, likely even more.
These are those who NEVER EVEN HAD THE CHANCE TO LIVE SO THAT YOU COULD.
As I repeat from above, you are doing them a disservice.
Can you face your 'siblings' when you die?
Maybe when you die, you'll see them. Those pitiful ones who didn't get a chance a life, because you did.
And then if they ask you, what did you do with your life?
Will you tell them: I killed myself when I was XX years old.
That is grossly unfair to them.
You may say: I didn't want to be born.
The fact that you're here today is proof that a tiny part of you wanted to be born.
Only the strongest survive, and only one sperm can fuse with the egg to produce the zygote and all.
Out of the many thousands of sperms, every one was fighting so hard - for the chance to be born.
And you were one of them.
Natural Selection is when the strongest are weeded out from the rest.
You were naturally selected, as was I.
The theory depicts that those who are born from the rest are equipped with skills and attributes to help themselves, to make them better than others.
The fact that you were born means that you have something worth living for, something that made you superior than the other thousands.
Your life is exremely precious.
Love and value yourself.
Yes, this was the story that made me realise how important I, or for that matter, each person, is.
I may not have as magnificent skills of storytelling as Adam or Gary, but this carries at least the gist of the story.
I hope you understand my take on suicide now.
I hope this song will guide you home.
